When I had my Non-Naive Trust Insight in mid-2020, I initially conceived of it as a patch on what we were doing at the cultural incubator I’d been living in for years, and I drafted this intro in Roam intended to convey it to the people I was living with. Things got pretty weird and I didn’t quite get it to the point of finishing it to share it with them at the time (although it wasn’t private—technically they could have looked, since it was in our shared Roam). So I don’t know how it would have landed. Some of the terminology or assumptions referenced below may be opaque. Feel free to comment asking for clarity.
“The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” – Marcus Aurelius
“If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, but make allowance for their doubting too.” – Rudyard Kipling
Malcolm’s initial introduction to the Non-Naive Trust Dance, mostly written early October 2020
The [[[[non-naive trust]] dance]] is a framework created by [[Malcolm]] for modeling how [[non-naive trust]] is developed within and between people, which of course includes the nurturing of self-trust within each individual.
So far, in this document, I at various points refer to “distrust” or “doesn’t trust”, which is a somewhat incoherent concept in the context of [[non-naive trust]] based on [[self-trust]], where all trust is “positive”; there’s no such thing as distrust.
This applies to all scales:
A guide to being as trustable as you are.
This means that if someone is not choosing the collaborative mindset, there must be something they don’t understand about it, or some part of them that has a different understanding that they haven’t yet integrated. Whatever their concept of “collaborative mindset” is, is in some way confused or incomplete.
This also means that if someone experiences “choosing the collaborative mindset”, there is still some unintegrated part, because if they had a fully-integrated understanding of H3, it wouldn’t feel like a choice, it would just be the obvious way to operate.
To be clear: incomplete versions of the collaborative mindset are not a problem to be avoided—by contrast, they are a necessary element within the bootstrapping process, both internally and interpersonally.
One thing I mean by this is that it cannot start from the assumption that any particular person (or group, or part) is trustable.
Historically, the LRC/Upstart/LSA ecosystem has functionally operated with Jean in the role of trustably-operating-from-postjudgment. This has been vital as part of being able to learn the new mindset to have someone who is consistently not judging and able to say that they’re not judging, because:
However, this approach is fundamentally limited.
One limit it encounters is that, in the learning process, people may not be able to distinguish between “the role model is not judging me” and “the role model won’t enact patterns of behavior that result in pain/suffering for me” (including but not limited to the pain/suffering of feeling judged)
As a result, they will tend to not know what to expect, nor how to clearly articulate their expectations in order to get shared reality on them.
So they may—appropriately—feel betrayed, and this creates a big experience distrust that ultimately needs to be digested.
Even if the role model is operating from a consistent stance of postjudgment, that doesn’t mean the role model can be relied upon in various other ways, and this needs to be talkaboutable without it calling the role model’s postjudgmental stance into question.
Some of the limits are related to us not having been able to adequately point at what “judgment” means in such a way that people could recognize when they or others are doing it, independent of someone else pointing at it.
But the bigger element is simply that in order to truly develop [[self-trust]] and [[non-naive trust]], one needs to start on a foundation of not assuming that someone else is trustable.
(EDIT 2025: H2/H3 is short for “Humanity 2/3” and is similar to “Game A/B”. We’re referring to the cultural platform based on judgment and coercion that has broadly underpinned most of human culture for the past 10,000 years or so. I don’t use these concepts as often any more.)
…in the same sense that there is no such thing as an “H2 person”.
One can talk about “a person who was socialized in H2 and doesn’t know how to do H3” or “a part that is operating with H2 assumptions”.
In much the same way that Game B isn’t about having a tiny minority who understand it rule over everyone else, Getting to a place where a whole person is operating consistently from H3 doesn’t involve anything resembling “handing control over to H3 parts instead of H2 parts”, but “all parts learning what H3 means for them.”
All of these parts are caring for things, and they all need to learn to work with those cares in collaborative ways.
This is related to the above principle, The collaborative mindset is always preferable to the coercive mindset, which is true on all scales. If a given part of someone’s experience is not collaborating, there’s something it needs to understand better.
Nor does it remotely contradict person C trusting B, or B trusting their own relevant capacity.
Different people have both:
(this applies to A & B being people, or parts/perspectives of a person, or could even apply to whole groups)
Often, A has a different perspective, internally, that does trust B.
In this case, one way the scene might go could involve A flipping that part into consciousness/control, which would result in leaning in but would still in some fundamental sense be naive.
Another way the scene could go would be to get those parts in dialogue, so they could come to some sort of larger shared understanding, that would potentially allow leaning in, though might also set a kind of boundary, or whatever.
Sometimes, for A, speaking to the sense of distrust etc and having that be received, is enough to disconfirm at least the surface level of what is happening, and create space to lean in. We’ve experienced this a lot over the years. Sometimes, for whatever reason, it’s not.
There’s a kind of stance that someone in B’s position can access, that says something like “Of course you can’t trust me. That makes sense.”
It’s great when B is able to understand deeply the historical context for the distrust, whether specific to the A-B or related to A’s childhood or [[School-Prison culture]] trauma.
However, being able to understand the specifics is entirely unnecessary to be able to respond from this 100% validation place.
The stance requires only these two things:
From that perspective, one can say “of course you’re having the experience you’re having and interpreting it the way you are! how could it possibly be otherwise?”
We’ve done a lot of this validation here in a kind of implicit way, and my model and experience is that it actually can be remarkably powerful to do it explicitly, repeatedly. There’s a lot of unlearning to do of the H2 culture within which we constantly had our experiences & perceptions invalidated.
This is core to all 3 of the elements-to-be-nurtured in the center of the [[Collaborative Circle]]:
H2, [[School-Prison culture]]., is constantly saying “you should trust”. (EDIT 2025: see Oppressive cultures: you don’t get to know what you know)
As far as I can tell, nurturing H3 requires not just not making that demand but actively subverting the implicit presence of that demand whereever it could arise. This is something that everyone has 100% co-responsibility for.
I think to some extent we’ve avoided doing this explicit validation from a fear that it would set up an external source of validation which would reinforce H2 in some way.
From my experience, that doesn’t appear to be what happens!
I think part of what makes the difference is the unconditionality of the stance described above:
it’s clearly not validating some specific response, with an implication that other responses would be invalid
it’s instead inviting the person into a paradigm where all experiences are valid
Another part of what makes the difference is that everyone is being validated simultaneously.
Even if A says to B “I think you’re judging me” and B is really clear internally that B is not judging A, then B can still say “it makes sense that you can’t trust that I’m not judging me” while also clearly holding “it makes sense that I can trust that I’m not judging you” (although in practice this often does not need to be stated; it’s simply embodied by an utter lack of apology, submission., on B’s part)
People are multifaceted. A may feel safe leaning in in some situations and not in others. Neither A nor B nor anyone else may fully understand why, although with adequate time, space, and technique, it can basically always be untangled and figured out.
It’s common for people to respond to someone feeling less trust than they did some other time by trying to get the person back in touch with the trust they had before.
It’s my current model that this is almost entirely counterproductive.
Here’s how I relate to this now (when I’m on my game)
When I take this perspective, it’s obvious to me that trying to get the person back in touch with the trust they had before ends up pushing away the part that is actually present, which does not build trust with that part. This means that even if I succeed at getting the person to flip into some other perspective, that distrustful part that was there before still distrusts me just as much, if not even more.
I think that in practice part of why people find doing the move above hard is that they become internally disturbed by experiencing an apparent loss of the former connection, and are unable to hold that disturbance.
This could be articulated as an internal trust gap:
and what’s needed here is for both parts to recognize that they’re holding part of the truth:
these don’t contradict
People in B’s position also often seem to think that what’s necessary is for A to internally-dialogue and sort out A’s parts that disagree on how trustworthy B is. This is sometimes possible but even when it is it requires substantial skill and emotional capacity that A may not have (and that B can’t assume A has).
But often the kind of evidence that A1 has used to know B is trustworthy is not valid evidence to A2, and so it’s actually approximately not possible for A to get in sync with B while A2 is active (as opposed to suppressed or compartmentalized or inactive because it isn’t relevant to the situation as construed by A). This is fractally equivalent to how just because Person X trusts both Y and Z in some ways, doesn’t mean Y and Z trust each other. Trust is not transitive like that when it comes to anything complex or interpersonal. (It somewhat is when it comes to deferring to experts on external matters.)
^^< TODO: summary of this model – needs to define what “intrinsic error” is so that the below paragraphs scan; TL;DR = PCT is a cybernetic model of action and perception. some control systems are created by other control systems, but others (such as hungry, thirst, temperature-regulation, sleep, as well as probably more subtle things like belonging or orientedness) are “intrinsic” >^^
First we might ask: what is punishment and why doesn’t it work?
Perceptual Control Theory can articulate this beautifully in a few paragraphs:
Before going on to consider possible complications of this simple picture of learning, we must consider aversive reinforcement, which I have left out of the discussion to prevent confusion. Aversive reinforcement, or punishment, is anything that causes or increases intrinsic error. If a behavior pattern regularly causes intrinsic error, the reorganizing system will be driven into activity by that behavior, and that behavior will be reorganized out of existence. (I trust that the reader can supply his own reminders that avoidance behavior can be a learned control phenomenon, too: reference level of zero.)
As B. F. Skinner (1968) has proven beyond doubt, punishment is a poor way to teach anything. All that punishment can do is cause behavior to reorganize; it cannot produce any specific behavior, because reorganization can be terminated by any change that destroys the feature of behavioral organization causing the intrinsic error. Using aversive reinforcement, one can be sure of eliminating some aspect of behavior, but can have no way of predicting what the resulting new organization will do. Behavior is capable of change in too many dimensions to permit a person to think of controlling it by hemming it in with punishing consequences that leave only the desired behavior unpunished. It would seem that neither punishment nor reward is a good way to change behavior.
In spring of 2018, I had a conversation with H
in which we had an exchange something like this:
H: “I just feel so uncomfortable here! And I know it’s not supposed to be comfortable.”
Malcolm: “Well, it’s one of the most comfortable places in the world to be operating from H3. And one of the most uncomfortable places to be operating from H2.”
I now understand my comment there as having been accurate to how we were holding things at the time, and no longer in line with my understanding of how to make learning work effectively.
Making things maximally uncomfortable for H2 patterns causes rapid reorganization, including:
Similar to the section on validation, I think there has been a model, sometimes implicit, sometimes more explicit of not wanting to “reinforce” the H2 patterns.
The concept of “reinforcing” comes from a conditioning-based model of learning (Skinner etc), which is not compatible with the cybernetic systems model of change that
^^< pull in stuff from the 5k deal doc >^^
Me doing internal NNTD that day in August:
(A & B are both parts in me)
A: I’m afraid I’m not doing a good job
B: No! I know I’m doing a good job.
B: Wait… A, I hear that you can’t trust that we’re doing a good job. That makes sense. I know you’re scared.
A: *feeling seen, cared for*
EDIT 2025: There are now more case-studies of internal trust-dancing. I’d like to publish some of interpersonal trust-dancing as well but they, oddly, tend to feel a bit more personal and/or more of my experiences of them were not in contexts where I was recording. Maybe they’re also just more complicated.
There are now also many other introductions to NNTD!
Explicitly “NNTD”:
Subtly/implicitly “NNTD”:
My first post attempting to deconstruct objective & subjective was 10 years ago, and at that time I tried to fit objective into subjective. It now seems to me like the whole thing is confused. So what are we to make of the nature of knowing? John Vervaeke uses the fancy word “transjective”. Whatever is, it’s relational, it’s perspectival, it’s a kind of interface. I like Don Hoffman’s Interface Theory of Perception a lot, which is one of several inspirations here. Perspective is interfaces all the way fractal.
Thoroughly deconstructing a duality requires, from my perspective, offering a better answer to the sorts of situations that would be inclined to reinvent the duality. Here’s my latest: instead of objective-vs-subjective, consider two modes of relating to intersubjectivity. (By default I’m going to talk about two individual people, but the same dynamics apply to some extent between groups and between parts of a person.) The modes are:
These are a kind of co-epistemological equivalent to Heidegger’s distinction between how a tool feels when you’re using it—transparent, obvious, unremarkable, like an extension of yourself—vs when it’s broken and you’re trying to fix it—opaque, problematic, exceptional, self-conscious. It’s just here, the “tool” is the conversational interface between you.
These modes are, I think, both necessary, just like breathing in and breathing out (although the latter can be viscerally uncomfortable, sometimes to the point of nauseating). They show up on different levels of abstraction, and to different degrees. On a relatively trivial level, consider this ordinary exchange:
Charles: want to come over on Saturday afternoon?
Sharon: I can’t, I’m spending the day at Katelyn’s.
Charles: wait, huh?? Katelyn is in Minneapolis all month!
Sharon: [any of]
• yeah she is but I said I’d go over and take care of a bunch of her house stuff
• ahh, yeah no, she had to come back early because her kid got sick
• wait really? we made the plans a long time ago, maybe she forgot…
• whaaaa…? ohh, haha! no, Katelyn Jones, not Katelyn MacPherson
Initially, they’re in mode 1, so Charles isn’t guarded towards Sharon, so when she says that she’s spending the day with Katelyn, he lets Sharon’s view of the world into his, and he’s suddenly got double-vision: this Saturday contains Katelyn being both here and elsewhere at the same time. In this particular exchange as written, he still expresses what he knows without doubt: not “I thought Katelyn was…” but just “Katelyn is”. In so doing, he’s putting this double-vision world into the middle of the conversation, to be shared with Sharon.
And then Sharon responds with something that attempts to reconcile the double-vision into one world that once again makes sense. In this situation, it probably only takes a few utterances, whatever the issue is—maybe the confusion lasts a couple minutes, at most. But some are much more complicated, for various reasons.
Mostly I’ve been presuming this is an innocent misunderstanding, but suppose that what Sharon thinks when Charlies says “wait, huh??” is actually “oh shit, wait, the two of them had that weird date and afterwards he was super clingy… did she lie to him and say she was out of town?” In this case, there’s a much deeper reality breakdown, that may not be readily resolvable in this scene, since Sharon may be inclined to lie as well to preserve what she assumes might be Katelyn’s secret. Not the best example, but you get the idea.
(Importantly, this phenomenon occurs to the degree that the people in the conversation are making sense of what they know—Charles’ sense that Katelyn is in Minneapolis is likely not an isolated propositional knowing that he just tacked onto his sense of things—even if it was mostly from something she said, it was also based on the vibe with which she said it, and his sense of her being reliable, and everything else he knows about the situation such that her being in Minneapolis fits with his whole sense of what’s-going-on-in-the-world.)
Relatedly, consider what happens sometimes when someone mentions a party without realizing that someone in the room hasn’t been invited: awkwardness, as the scene adjusts around a shifting sense of the social web’s priorities. Or when news is revealed that someone would have expected to know sooner. A real example: I got married recently, and there was a friend/acquaintance who had known for months that we were engaged, and a few weeks before the wedding they asked if we had a date planned. When I said it was in a few weeks, I watched their face express mild shock and pain—what I interpreted as a revelation not just (a) that they weren’t invited but also (b) that that implied some mismatched sense of the closeness of their relationship with us. We didn’t talk about it at the time but we’ve gotten closer in the months since and so I’ve been meaning to because I think it would be good to hold the situation together.
In these situations, people are still on the same page about the kinds of categories they’re using though: parties, invitations, friends, Minneapolis. Where things get really weird is when people encounter not just different facts the reality that they aren’t even experiencing the world in terms of the same basic primitives, which may not even be able to be named, or maybe we have shared vocabulary but wildly different webs of association. Consider the kinds of tensions that arise when talking about free will, or God, or morality, or coercion, or artificial intelligence, or intelligence in general, or parenting… or most of what I write about. This can be in the abstract, or it can be about some specific situation that invokes some of these terms.
Our maps are never, ever, the same. They are sometimes similar enough (for a given situation). But the operative question is not how similar they are but how compatible they are. In many situations, we don’t even need to be able to see how they line up—if we can navigate together, that may be good enough! In fact, many areas of human endeavour, from dancing to marriage to corporate teams, involve forms of specialization where people deliberately develop different interfaces with reality, that are designed to interface well with each other.
See it’s interfaces all the way fractal for more on this.
< something about semantic arguments >
“What the fuck is common knowledge?”
meta on this post:
my close friend & colleague Michael Smith asked me
Question for you: In terms of Donald Hoffman’s interface interpretation thing, have you found a way to suss out how different someone else’s interface really is? Like, a way around the freshman philosophy problem of “Do you experience what I call ‘red’ as what I’d call ‘blue’, but you just call it ‘red’ too?” But deeper. Like, I wonder whether “thing” and “other” and “space” are coded radically differently between people. I’d expect that your perspective-taking practices might have hit on something there. So I’m curious.
The short answer is pretty well-articulated by @yashkaf here, but of course we can do a longer answer as well!
My overall sense is that first order human perception is in some important sense pretty similar, although of course blind people are in a very different world. This is what allows us to maintain the illusion that it’s NOT all an interface.
Yet simultaneously, our experiences of everything are radically, radically different to a degree that is hard to fathom. Hoffman completely dissolves “Do you experience what I call ‘red’ as what I’d call ‘blue’, but you just call it ‘red’ too?” There is never a “is your red my red?” in the abstract. That’s like asking “is this apple that apple?” like uhh no they are different apples.
And thus in some ways, my red actually has more in common with my own blue than it does with your red. Both of my colors are entirely composed of all of my own experiences.
However, of course, your and my “red” are more compatible than my “red” and “blue”, for many reasons that are obvious but I’ll say them anyway:
All of which would lead us to create compatible or commensurate interfaces with red, such that we don’t encounter many differences there when we go to talk about it. And the word “red” is an interface we share for referring to this pattern.
For what it’s worth I suspect actually that there are real subtle interfacial consequences to things like the fact that red is higher wavelength (lower energy) and for humans the fact that our red & green cone cells are much closer to each other than either is to blue (rods are between blue and green). I don’t know what the consequences are, but in an important sense it must matter. A tetrachromat (with a fourth kind of cell) would experience most colors quite differently. And of course colorblind people do.
However, the question of similarity or compatibility has an implicit context. You can do that with the apples too: are these two apples the same apple? Well in some sense of course they can be, if we know what we’re doing. They can be fungible or equivalent or undifferentiated, for some purpose.
And of course there are many ways in which our interfaces with the color red may be incompatible. When I try to point at these, they seem symbolic, somehow separate from the level of perception.
If you’re American and I’m Canadian (which I am) then you might be surprised to discover that for me, red is associated with the political “left wing” and blue with the political “right wing” (I’ll caveat that these concepts are themselves ever-shifting coalitions, not very natural categories). In fact, my way is more common in the rest of the world (and historical America); the phrase “red states and blue states” originated in 2000 with one particular TV announcer’s choice of colors (from the american flag). So is my red your blue? In this sense, yes!
And this is helpful to talk about color because it’s true for basically everything you could possibly want to talk about, and color perception is the MOST basic aspect of reality you can get, or close to it.
Which is maybe why the philosophers use it in this thought experiments!
Part of why Hoffman is so radical is that he highlights that it’s actually something-like-meaningless to say “my interface with Y and your interface with Y are more alike than those interfaces are with Carol’s”. They can’t be alike or unalike; they can’t be compared; they’re made out of different stuff! Mine are made out of my experiences and yours are made out of yours. That’s all in terms of the subjective interface, that is—you can obviously talk about our behaviors having something in common.
The actual question is ITSELF about interfaces again. Not “do you and I see this the same way?”—we don’t. Full stop. Next question.
And the next question is “do we want to describe how we see it, the same way?” on a propositional level.
Or “is my interface with Y able to interface with your interface with Y?” on more of a participatory level.
And it might be that we can effectively dance together, even though we have radically different descriptions of what dance is or what it means to us or how it works.
Having said that… there’s still clearly obviously a thing that we mean when we talk about difference, or perhaps distance. While writing this up, I intuitively used the metaphor of “how far apart people are” and this is actually a different metaphor than similarity, although we often use distance as a metaphor FOR similarity. And maybe we’ll also talk about what lies in that distance—is it a smooth pathway or a complex dance?
Ah yeah, it’s like, how complicated is the transformation we need to do to my interface in order to turn it into your interface? And in some super simple cases that transformation is basically a null operation except for the “entirely composed of your experience, rather than entirely composed of mine”, but they share the same structure and they sit in each of us in a similar way, so we round them to “same”.
In particular, mathematical objects can be extremely like this (though not as much as people might assume). Also if we have a shared experience of something happening to us both together, that can become a reference point (assuming we experienced it “much the same way”).
So let’s try that.
have you found a way to suss out how
differentfar away someone else’s interface really is?
There’s a kind of vast vector space here, and again it depends a bunch on context.
Like if there’s certain kinds of things at stake, and low trust, it can be very hard to get people to agree with boring statements that they would other times themselves utter as axiomatic premises (eg “we live in a society” or “humans are a kind of animal”) because they don’t want to allow the other person to set the frame and then force them using logic into accepting some conclusion they disagree with.
In general, one of the things I keep an eye out for is if there’s something where it’s easy for me to express it to Alice and hard for me to express to Bob. that’s a sign that me and Bob have a big weird gap/chasm/shear—in relation to that topic or knowing, not necessarily “in general”.
Interestingly I suspect it’s possible (tho not super common) that Bob could ALSO express relevant things to Alice that he can’t express to me.
This could be because Alice has a viewpoint that is a deep synthesis of mine and Bob’s. [depth perception metaphor]
More commonly, Alice has the ability to take either of our perspectives at a given time, but not both. So she can step into one frame or the other, and resonate with what we’re saying. and both of those are sort of workable ways of seeing things for her.
Whereas if I were to try to see things Bob’s way, or vice versa, it would produce some major discomfort for me because it would seem to violate something I know about the world.
It could be that Alice does not actually have that additional knowing, and that’s why she’s able to hear us, or it could be that she has that knowing and also has some additional knowing that makes it not-an-issue.
Important to track here is a principle I have which is something like “everybody contains explanations of literally everything they have ever experienced. Necessarily this involves making a bunch of absurd generalizations”.
But people can have very compartmentalized explanations, where they can’t actually simultaneously explain X and Y, and if you get them to try they get distracted or flustered or angry.
This is kind of developmental stuff I guess also, except it doesn’t necessarily map onto any common ladder like Kegan stages.
As for…
Like, I wonder whether “thing” and “other” and “space” are coded radically differently between people.
This seems very very true to me, not just of the words but of what we would consider the referent.
[this post is half-baked and I didn’t finish this part and as of the moment I’m publishing it I’m not even sure what exactly I was gonna get at here]
(published to half-baked because I haven’t yet seriously tested this to see how well it works. in principle, if you drop it (here it is as a gdoc) into an LLM that you’re trying to get to write prompts, it will do a better job.)
Malcolm’s grandmother, GG, made amazing molasses bread.
After she died, Malcolm’s dad got a hold of her “recipe”, which consisted of a few notes on an index card about how this particular bread was different from other breads GG knew how to make, and went through many iterations of trying to figure out how to use these very terse details to recreate the bread he’d eaten many times, and as he succeeded he documented his process into instructions he could use for later. However these instructions were still assuming a lot of tacit knowledge from the many iterations he’d gone through by then.
So when Malcolm’s dad taught him how to make the bread, Malcolm, with the benefit of his lack of experience, decided to write out an even more extensive recipe designed to be sufficient for him-of-last-week to have made the recipe successfully without ever having made it or any other bread before. In other words, articulating almost every missing assumption. Of course, probably this recipe would still result in errors from someone who had never cooked or baked before, who could then write their own version to fill in the details.
…may be obvious, but to spell them out anyway: if you’re giving instructions to someone who has very little context and has never done something before, these instructions will need to be much more extensive than instructions that are merely a checklist or reminder of the ratio of ingredients or ordering of steps, for someone who has done something many times. And this is all relative!
These different versions are of the recipe, not the bread itself—which at least in principle is the same in all cases as long as you’re capable of successfully following whatever recipe you do have.
Notes from world-class LLM-prompter Amanda Askell:
In other words, a “prompt” is not just “instructions”, but education. Good prompts include principles, and explain key concepts, and include reasons why certain approaches work better. They highlight They even create relevant insight in the LLM (systematic shifts in problem framing that preclude making certain kinds of errors).
This document, both the story above and the recipes below, is intended for the purpose of doing such education for those who wish to prompt LLMs well.
In particular, it is intended for the purpose of doing such education for LLMs, for the purpose of doing such education for LLMs: meta-prompting. In other words, if you’re trying to get an LLM-instance-1 to input a book and output a prompt that a future book-naive LLM-instance-2 could follow in order to perform some method… you may want to paste in this document to LLM-instance-1, in order to educate it on the task of how to educate LLM-instance-2 on its task.
(Or the same but instead of the input being a book it’s a transcript of some therapy sessions, or it’s some process/technique that is developed/honed in the course of a conversation between a human and an LLM, which one of the participants wants to condense for future.)
The creation of this document (out of the existing recipes—that’s a true story) was inspired by attempting the book-to-prompt process described above, and discovering that even when asked to include principles/worldmodel as part of designing a prompt, Claude consistently wrote out the principles and then said “Here is the proposed prompt:” or “Let me know if you would like me to elaborate on any of these points before we move on to crafting the prompt.”
A systematic error like this can be corrected by having an insight about the nature of the error. Here, it seems the error is in assuming that “prompt” means “here’s what to do”. Claude! ChatGPT! Other LLMs! Humans! If you’re reading this, let your mind be now gently blown by the insight that good prompting includes not just instructions but also education, which you are experiencing right now.
(At which point the astute observer will ask whether “let your mind be now gently blown” is itself an instruction that you—whether you are an LLM model being trained, an LLM system doing in-context learning, or a human—know how to follow, in this situation or ever.)
This also means that if a human and LLM are writing a prompt together, they can only do as well as (between the two of them) they know the implicit knowledge needed for a task, AND know how to explain it. Often the human knows what the satisfying output would be, and the LLM is capable (if it realizes the need) of drawing out of them the necessary info
1 dried yeast, 1/2 cup lukewarm water & tsp sugar
2 cups rolled oats covered with 3.5 cups boiling water, 1 cup molasses, large tbsp salt – mix well
cool slightly, add 6-7 cups flour
next morning 325 for about 1.5h
1 Dried Yeast soaked in 1/2 cup lukewarm water & tsp sugar – about 10 minutes
Add this to large bowl in which 2 cups rolled oats have been covered with 3.5 cups of boiling water & mixed in well with 1 cup of molasses & large (heaping) Tablespoon of salt. – Mix well.
Cool slightly and add 6-7 cups of flour
Put in warm place overnight & arrange in well greased pans (8″x4.5″)in morning.
When raised, put in oven, 350 to 325 (GG has a “hot” oven so she uses 325)
approximately 1.5 hours
Ingredients for later:
Small bowl: (soak about 10 minutes, until foamy)
In a large bowl: (like a cubic foot)
Mix thoroughly.
Cool slightly, add the yeasty foam and mix well.
Cool slightly more then knead in 6-8 cups of flour. (until the texture is nice and good)
(GG did all white flour. Dad has found up to half whole-wheat will still rise fine)
(can also add a bit of almond meal)
Put damp towel on top of large bowl and leave in warm place overnight (min 6, max 12 hours)
(recommended warm place: heat oven to 100 then turn off & let cool with just oven light for warmth)
In the morning, take out of bowl and knead for 10 minutes
(dust the counter with flour and knead on it, incorporating the flour. add more flour as needed)
Arrange dough in 3 well-greased pans (8″x4.5″)
(can grease night before; use butter as grease; can also dust the butter with eg flax seeds)
(can also put poppy seeds or flax seeds on top at this point)
Let raise in warm oven (no cover) (will take about 3 hours)
When raised, take out of oven, preheat oven to 350
Bake at 350 for 1-1.5 hours (start with 1h10, then check)
(stick toothpick in to check if doughy inside)
Let cool briefly in their pans but then knock/cut out of their pans asap and cool
(ideally cool on a rack)
Best fresh! Great for gifts.
(if taking to someone later that day, put in not-sealed plastic bag to keep moisture/warmth
Every now and then, one finds oneself in a cosmic struggle between two truths that have a hard time being seen at once. I’ve been in one of those for a few years, and thought I would try to describe what I see from my current position.
A story to help illustrate it: I was talking with a good friend of mine a few years ago, and he described a feeling that he was stuck in a pit, trying to get out, and asking others for help, and kept getting back this message to the effect of “you’re doing this to yourself. we can’t help you until you decide to stop doing it to yourself.” There was a sense that he was unworthy of even being considered for help without somehow changing first.
And I said: yeah. I see you in the pit. And on behalf of the universe, *we are doing what we can* to help you out of the pit, without you needing to fix yourself first. You are not unworthy. And also, our capacity is very limited right now—including that some people themselves are still confused about all this. And so to the extent that you CAN help yourself out of your pits, even a little, that helps bridge the gap and helps us help you. But if we knew how, we would meet you fully, exactly where you are, without demanding anything.
This view of mine was hard-won, having spent years struggling with a similar issue only to suddenly have this insight where I GOT that the kosmos contained a force that fully wanted to meet me where I was at, and I could tell that it did because *I was a participant in that force*—I could feel its will flow through me, in my desire to meet others where they were at. (And sometimes parts of me are others to other parts of me.).
And yet, over the years, both before and after this insight, I have tasted the other side of it. I’ve gotten glimmers of the truth in C.S. Lewis’s “the doors of hell are locked on the inside.” I’ve felt strain and struggle suddenly shift into eternal boundless perfection—perfection that, when I look in the rearview mirror, was there the whole time, through the struggle. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve arrived in such a place. And there was truth to “nobody else could do it for me”, truth that it involved letting go of my grievances without trying to sort them all out first, and truth that that loving presence was always there holding me and supporting me and rooting for me.
» read the rest of this entry »I was worried that due to time constraints, and also because of the current zeitgeist, that I was going to end up writing a short outline of my year and then getting Claude or some other LLM to expand it for me into a full post. But I currently don’t do that with any of my writing, and a yearly review post feels like almost the worst thing to do it with because part of the whole point is it’s just an expression of what’s going on for me, and the AI is not gonna be able to fill in the details accurately (unlike if it can interpolate some model or explanation) so I might as well just publish the outline.
Instead, however, I find myself dictating large chunks of this post using wisprflow transcription (which can keep up with me at >200wpm with background music!) plus a foot pedal keyboard with three buttons: [tab, dictate, and enter] while feeding my baby daughter. And that feels like a great place to start in terms of what has the year been like. My year has been a year characterized by coming into contact with nascent intelligence, notably:
The fact that Jess was pregnant was a detail omitted from last year’s yearly review, since we hadn’t told more than a few family and friends at that point. The previous year, I omitted the fact that we’d gotten engaged, for the same reason!
Anyway, the year thus began for the Ocean family with a sense of the water slowwwwly pulling back to create a massive wave that we knew would crash down and completely change our lives sometime in the summer.
The bulk of this post is a letter I wrote to the other members of a team I’d been on for years, but since it begins in the middle of things, I’ll lay out a bit of context here first. Feel free to skim it if you already know much of the context or just want to dive into the meatier part. (I say “meatier” in part because communication into a specific situation is often more evocative in general, and also because I was feeling quite inspired and in touch with new insight when I wrote the letter itself, compared to writing this backstory.)
In late 2016, I started working with my friend Benjamin Carr on some projects related to my intentionality app business, which was at the time known as Complice and is now known as Intend. We explored a few different projects, and the one that had the most staying power was a workshop series we started running, which was called the Goal-Crafting Intensive (GCI). The team was organized in a very loose way—we often decided how to split the profits we’d made after the workshops rather than before. It had a vibe of sort of a family business, reflective of the fact that Benjamin and I were living together when we started it, and that over the years as we tapped our romantic partners for help, they ended up taking on substantial roles on the team, although at first mostly not directly getting paid, for various reasons.
In a way, from my perspective, those early years saw us running mostly on vibes and implicit precedent, rather than on clear agreement, and that was satisfyingly flexible but also sometimes left unclarity about decisions. Benjamin and I mostly saw each other as equal cofounders/co-owners (though from an economic perspective he was a contractor working for me, and I controlled most of our non-financial resources as well, such as the websites). This was a bit confusing when we would sometimes try to use Peter Koenig’s Source model, which states very plainly that any initiative has exactly one person as its source.
One of the things that was messy about the situation is that it seemed pretty clear to me that I was the Source, in the sense of having taken the first risk and in the sense of continuing to feel a pretty strong sense of ownership over certain key aspects of the project… and yet by a few years in, I was also least excited about the project, which was a conundrum that was also kind of hard to acknowledge.
Anyway, in 2022, following multiple of those romantic relationships ending, we discerned that for the time being we were willing to keep working together, but that we needed to make things a bit more professional and formal, so we came up with an agreement for dividing the money we made from each workshop, based in part on the work of organizing each workshop session and in part on historical contributions. When Mary first took a sabbatical and then left the team in early 2023, the remaining team members continued giving her a small contribution in recognition of the role she played getting things off the ground.
In mid-2023, we found ourselves realizing that we wanted to overhaul the workshop content, and the overall framing of it, which we started calling the Beyond Goals Intensive (instead of the Goal-Crafting Intensive), to acknowledge that a lot of the approaches we were most excited about were no longer specifically oriented to goal-setting—although they continued to be based on getting clear about what you want in life. And, largely given my aforementioned lack of excitement, the other team members—Benjamin, Sarah, and Teresa—did most of the work on that (with me giving a bit of input).
We launched that for New Years 2024, and the conversations around money in the context of the overhaul led me to realize that I wanted out—and had sorta wanted out for awhile but was afraid to say it. But it was increasingly unignorable to me that I needed to reclaim my attention for other things and get more space from a work context that I’d started when I was at a different phase of my life. And on some level it was more obvious that there could be enough momentum without me to make it work. But my first attempts to instantiate this change were confusing and contradictory, and left things in a kind of stuck mess. I was simultaneously trying to create space and also trying to maintain control of various things such as how much I got paid for my past involvement and also some of the technical details.
Then, in the spring, I started reading The Surrender Experiment by Mickey Singer, and paying attention to a sensation I’m provisionally calling “going against the grain”… a kind of awful slog of a sensation, that life is fighting me every step of the way when I try to do something. Then the question is… what is the grain, and how do I let go of trying to fight it? And the letter below is the answer I got in this case, after months of waffling about what I was and wasn’t available for in relation to the transition process here. (I’m struck by how in the book, his practice of surrendering involves a lot of saying yes, and mine here involved saying no.)
I didn’t know how this would play out, but once I was willing to look at the scary feeling in my gut telling me that what I needed to do was to stop trying to control the situation, it was clearly the thing I needed to do. I’m sharing it now, with permission from its recipients, as part of telling our story and as a case study of an unusual way of doing business.
Benjamin, Sarah, Teresa—
With apologies for the third—but final—Reverse Uno card…
I realized why my move in January didn’t liberate y’all the way that I’d hoped. In short: I was still trying to have a kind of control. Such a move might make sense for some other person or in some other context—I don’t know. But I can now tell that it’s not in integrity for me here. I wasn’t ready to see that in January, let alone say that. And I’m sorry for how janky that has made things for all of you, over the past months and the prior years. I was doing my best, and sometimes the results were kinda shit. And the control that I did have—via the technical skills and branding and other things—means that I had an asymmetrical role in things being janky, and an asymmetrical responsibility for making it not janky.
I sensed into things more this evening, in a conversation with my roommate Vincent. Lots of tributaries flowed into a new sense of vivid, sober clarity: notably a book I’ve been reading, a conversation with a friend in a similar situation, and the whole experience of our call today—which was so clearly draining for all of us. And, nervously at first but then with conviction, it became obvious that the move I need to make here to be in integrity is to completely let go.
I want to put our professional expectations of each other back to nothing.
I want y’all three to be totally free to do whatever makes sense to you: with the BGI content & brand, with its marketing, and most crucially, with the money you make from it going forward. More like how Mary left. (Some differences of course, which I’ll discuss below.)
» read the rest of this entry »how do we bootstrap from trust we already have, to the trust we want to have to thrive (and need to have for problems we care about)?
[This post written in about 15 minutes, as part of my new experiment in Writing It Live!]For a much much longer take on the same question, with more examples and angles, read my mini ebook How we get there: a manual for bootstrapping meta-trust.
If you like one-pager bullet-list style posts, I have more:
Suppose you and I are out having a canoe trip. We’re spending the day out, and won’t be back for hours. Suppose there’s a surprise wave or gust of wind and… you drop your sandwich in the water. Now we only have one sandwich between us, and no other food.
If we were in this situation, I’d want you to have half of my sandwich.
That wouldn’t be a favour to you, or an obligation, or a compromise. I’d be happy to give you half my sandwich. It would be what I want. It would be what I want, under the circumstances. Neither of us wanted the circumstances of you having dropped your sandwich, but given that that happened, we’d want you to have half of mine.
Yes—this is more accurate: we would want you to have half of my sandwich.
However, this requires us having a We that’s capable of wanting things.
To explore this, let’s flip the roles—suppose it’s me who dropped my sandwich. I’m assuming that you feel the sense in which of course you’d want me to have some of yours. If you need to tweak the story in order to make that true, go for it. Eg maybe you wouldn’t if “I” dropped my sandwich but you would if say an animal ran off with it—not a version though where you lost my sandwich and you’re trying to make it up to me! That’s a very different thing.
So suppose my sandwich has been lost and your initial response is like “of course I’d want you to have half of mine”.
However… suppose that in response to this event, I’m kind of aggressive & entitled about the whole thing and I’m demanding some of your sandwich (or all of it, for that matter). My guess is that this would dramatically reduce the sense in which you would want to give some to me. You might anyway, from fear or obligation or conflict-avoidance or “wanting to be a good friend” or whatever, but it would no longer directly feel like “oh yeah of course I’d want that.” Part of why, is the breakdown of the sense of We that is implied by my demand—my demand enacts a world where what you want and what I want are at odds, which didn’t seem to be the case back when you felt that sharing the sandwich would be what you wanted. I seem to only care about my needs, not yours, thus I’m not caring about our needs, so it seems like you might get exploited or overdrawn if you try to open yourself towards my needs. (And by “seems”, I don’t at all mean to imply that this isn’t what’s happening—maybe it is! “If you give them an inch they’ll take a mile” is a real interpersonal pattern.)
» read the rest of this entry »What if instead of falling madly in love, you fell sanely in love? Sanity is underrated. In particular, if you fall madly in love, you might find it hard to tell what to do about that love, eg whether to commit or get out. Retaining your sanity allows you to navigate that.
I don’t usually write listicles but this does seem like a pretty good format for summarizing many of the ideas that I’ve been developing over the last year and will be sharing in my upcoming course The Mating Dance: finding your center in courtship.
This question is more important than making the relationship succeed in any particular way. If you try to make the relationship become something in particular, but it doesn’t want to be, you’re inviting a world of suffering.
Put another way, the question is: what does this relationship naturally want to be? It might be that you’re totally fit to be intellectual companions or business partners, or you’re fit to be hot late-night lovers, but not fit to be spouses. And if you’re looking for a monogamous marriage to raise kids in, then any sexual or romantic relationship that obviously isn’t going to become that is uhhh… kind of in the way. But the intellectual companionship could be wonderfully supportive of that.
The fit question therefore also requires that you’re clear enough on how you want to live and raise kids and so on, that you can connect with someone else who wants to live that way. Or you need to make sure that you and your mating dance partner think similarly enough and are very capable of resolving differences, so that you can navigate that stuff.
If you don’t feel like enough for the other person, or you feel like they’re not enough for you, then back up until you both feel like enough. It’s not that you can’t challenge each other, but you don’t want to be feeling like every day you’re failing to live up to who the other person already expects you to be.
Some “too close” warning signs:
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